Friday, April 21, 2017

Letting go and rolling with it

"I've walked upon the moors on many misguided tours
Where Emily, Anne and Charlotte poured their hearts out
And what did they know, what could they know about love?"

It's not without mixed feelings that I have started work on dismantling my glass studio.

I hope to be able to make beads through the month of May, but I'm starting to slowly sort through my glass, wash it, wash some of the bins, and sort out what to keep and what to sell.

So far I'm scratching the surface but getting started may have been the hardest part and I've done that.

For starters, I washed more than 17 lbs. of Bullseye glass rods. Neil took notes as I weighed it and noted the number of rods of each color.

That's about 1/3 of my stash of Bullseye. It didn't take as long as I would have predicted and better yet, it made me feel motivated to keep going.

House painters are working on the exterior paint so I can't make beads for a couple of days. I'm hoping to finish cleaning and inventorying the Bullseye and start putting most of it up for sale.

Right now I am selling some of my Lauscha. I plan to keep most of it, but the more I sell the more I feel like I can let go. It's a slow process. I have 12 lots listed and I can't overwhelm myself by listing more than that at once.

Luckily so far, most buyers have bought multiple lots so I haven't had to ship too many separate boxes. I did order more free boxes from the USPS. They'll come in the mail - haha.

It's funny, as I start letting go of things, it gets easier to let go of more things. Maybe it's the feeling of relief as I make the decision and my load gets a fragment lighter.

There is still an impressive way to go, but knowing I can give things up and the world keeps turning makes me optimistic that it all will eventually get done. Of course it will.

That doesn't mean I don't cry myself to sleep some nights. That doesn't mean I don't keep rebuffing Neil's offers to pack up my books or  collectibles with a "not yet."

We did make a timeline and some decisions about the hows. We think this is how it might work. All this assumes a mid-August closing.

In early August. pack a pod with boxes and small furniture items. I think my glass will travel this way. Have it picked up and stored.

A few days before closing, have the movers come for the furniture. Leave the furniture we aren't taking including a bed, sofa beds, some cookware, etc.

Fly to NC for the closing. Arrange for pod and furniture to arrive. Unload.

Fly home, load up my SUV with sundries and drive the cats to NC. Settle in.

Have some work completed on the house here. Put it on the market.

When the house sells, fly back for closing and to donate or dispose of any items still in the house.

Fly back to NC. Neil may drive his car back. Or he may give it to Chris and fly back.

I may not even need to be part of the last trip, but depending on timing - i.e, how long it takes for our house to sell - it might be a good time to visit our kids.

And since I started this post we've washed and inventoried more of the Bullseye. Maybe 3/4 of it.

It's a lot. And selling it will be a bugger bear. The way to get the most for it is to auction it in small lots of colors, a mix of the great and the good - because it's at least all good. If I price it and offer the inventory, I risk people cherry-picking the best colors and being stuck with the rest.

In my dreams, I'd love to sell it as one lot and have someone pick it up. Someone who has about $2,000 to spend. And it would be a bargain at that price.

It might be worth a try before I break it all up.

I've been really worried about packing the glass I'm keeping, but Neil put it into perspective. I could probably replace all of it for what it would cost if we paid a mover to pack it and move it. So except for the out-of-production colors, I'm just going to do a reasonable packing job and pod it and take my chances.

I'll take more care with the special colors that can't easily be replaced.

Then there is my collection of other artists' beads. It's more precious to me than the glass but easier to pack safely. They may go in the car with us.

As for my own beads, I will pack and pod them and plan to donate many of them in 2018. They won't be too hard to pack, just time consuming. Still I'll have all of June and July to do it, especially since I am on a roll with the glass and my goal is to finish washing it and sorting it by the end of May.

All right, a goal is just a goal. It's flexible.

But somehow it's taken me so long to finish this post that we finished the Bullseye gig. 53 lbs. 900 rods.

First down and ten. Rinse and repeat.


I could say, I could say
Say it again Kate
Love, love, love

I could say love over and over and over
I could say baby baby baby
Til my tongue spirals out of my head
When there's no one looking over my shoulder
I like to write rock and roll
But it doesn't always hang together
So what do I know
Or anyone know about love

You ask me how I feel
I said my heart was like a wheel
Why don't you listen to it sometime
I've walked upon the moors
On many misguided tours
Where Emily, Anne and Charlotte
Poured their hearts out
And what did they know
What could they know about love
And what did they know
Or anyone know about love

I could say love over and over and over
I could say baby baby baby
And make you think I mean it maybe
I'm going up a hill rolling a boulder
Trying to write rock and roll
But it doesn't keep body and soul together
So what do I know
Or anyone know about love

You ask me how I feel
I said my heart was like a wheel
Why don't you listen to it sometime
I've walked upon the moors
On many misguided tours
Where Emily, Anne and Charlotte
Poured their hearts out
And what did they know
What could they know about love
And what did they know
Or anyone know about love.

(Kate McGarrigle, Anna McGarrigle)